by Isadora H. Petrovsky
I want to do it alone
But I can’t
Because “that’s not how it works”
Someone tells me
Despite how many times I groan or complain
It is still a team effort
And there is no “I” in team.
But I always end up doing all the work
“It’s all about communication and delegation”
They say, but no one listens to me.
I hate relying on other people
But I need them
I can’t do the project alone, I just can’t
There are the cooperative ones, reluctant
Then the supportive ones, who aren’t really in the group but listen to me squak about it.
Then the ones who pretend to do something, but don’t
And the ones who do nothing at all.
I am in charge of my own Project
But I am also a part of yours
Different roles for different means for different ends
Still, I feel lost and subjected to the whims of the group mates in mine, though I follow my own instruction.
Maybe it’s just that it’s impossible to live
If living alone.
Not “by yourself”
That’s not the same as “alone”.
I don’t think I will ever get the hang of group projects
Once I think I do
The rules always change
Life is not like a box of chocolates at all, it’s more like a group project.
But damn good the very few times you actually get it right.